isn't it so amazing how some people like coon are so desperate for you to blog.. they're on their hands and knees begging for a random entry and saying they'll do anything in return.. lol okay maybe not to that extreme but blargh; anyways the adv english essay/exam was soooooo very harsh. i didn't even get to finish 1/3 of my exam which i wouldn't stop going on about.. well actually i did but blehh; i had just finished writing about three tecniques when i heard the teacher say 'pens down' and i felt so stupid, i felt like screaming and pulling out the teachers hair.. i wanted more time and almost burst out into tears but kept it in.. now i know how easily someone or something can make me cry.. and its not good to be a very emotional, i mean a very 'teary' kind of person.. but people at bethlehem college, well, the majority (or should i say MINORity) or year11 are very sweet.. i had my lovely mother, kaye who lent me her shoulder for me to blah blah blah.. and jenny, grace and i think it was coon.. they were comforting in a way as well and bleh; but afterwards was lazer HAR HAR; yes after failing an exam, i think of pump before studying harder for the next exams.. i kept the essay from my mum since i didnt want her to look forward to those horrible and embarassing results.. i was also about to keep this week's exam block from her too but then i realised.. what was i supposed to do until normal pick up time.. but anyways i guess i made the right decision, i guess its better than feeling guilty for the rest of the exam block.. but anyways WEEEEEEEEEEEEEE the holidays are in a few days and omgsh PARADISE sleeping late, waking up late.. sleeping so much that my eyes go puffy.. eating so much i turn plump and turn stubby.. going out and eating out with my lovely girlies kaye and coon and maybe just go out as an unwelcome random like last hols SIGH; for some shocking reason i dont miss passionflower at all, maybe cos of all the pressure on adolescents atm, all the dieting and the worrying about the calories or carbohydrates in food.. and i am worried, yes especially about people like my honey bunny, coon who are practically starving themselves on a carrot or cucumber stick.. ohh wells; im a healthy, yet fat, but a healthy kind of person so i shall never faint of starvation or suffer anorexia when dieting takes itself to the extreme.. havent been to karaoke in ages but shockingly, im not missing that either.. the only thing im missing is going out.. but then again school is good in a way.. since you dont have to worry about putting on make-up, deciding on what to wear and shiit.. afterall i do have a very small wardrobe.. well its not even a wardrobe o_o" more like a draw.. but everything fits so BLEH; anyways.. i havent watched a movie in YONKS and have been wishing to watch 'when a stranger calls' since whenever but never got the chance since mother is too afraid of those horror movies.. but you never know.. one day i might just drag her into the cinemas ;D heehee *EVIL laugh; and yes i have dicthed my chemistry study time for this blogging.. look at how bad role models your friends can be.. TSK; hehe.. since we come home straight after the exams.. it feels like the weekends.. or maybe even the holidays.. i wish that these hols wont be as boring and typical as the past few.. cos if it is, i'd rather have school, but w/o all the fuss about exams and assessments/assignments/reports/whatever.. well coon and monique have created their own little.. random.. kind of blog.. cant be bothered linking them again.. just click on the link that is located to the right hand side of your screem and ta~da~.. my bruddah bought me my fav TARO milk tea with pearls in his way back from uni.. lol and he brang a YELLOW straw *coon glares at susan and chants 'ORANGE orange orange!'* but too late.. not as if im gonna go all the way to easyway to exchange my straw to another colour LOL; yesterday, church was very very very VERY uber uber uber UBER.......... boring.. SIGH; it really was.. but then a ceratin someone wasnt there to stalk.. and so it was better than usual in a way.. but bleh; i am deaf in my ear again for what reason, i don't know. just screwed. why cant my ear be screwed when everything else about me already is.. my brain is screwed and is on the verge of a meltdown.. my eyes are retarted and so puffy.. my nose is all wonked and in need of surgery.. my mouth doesn't seem to shut up most of the time.. my teeth are artificial since they are getting fixed with metal studs called braces.. my ears are so big and stick out and people dont seem to not-notice it and it pisses me off like cant they just fuck off!? not as if theyre perfect anyway omgsh get a life.. seriously.. and btw why would you stare at someones ears anyways.. shows how the media has poisoned our minds into only seeing the beautiful people in today's society while making the other not-so-pretty people liek me feel like killing themselves.. (or the pretty people hehe ^^;;) anyways ARGH; *vent vent vent* and a few days ago.. i saw this tv show called 'the day my boobs went bust' about people with breast implants and how some turn out so retarded.. how someone's were uneven.. like very uneven.. one was normal but then the other one was WAHHH; but as if that shiit matters today.. only the bigness matters TSK; there was this woman who had to take them out for some reason and she was worrying if her husbnad would still love her and be attracted to her.. well if her husband doesnt, just cos her boobs are smaller.. wahh she has a fucked up husband.. anyways that was random but BLEH; anyways *drinks TARO milk tea* lol.. anyways spent too much time blogging.. so once again i shall go to my study mode.. LOL sigh; anyways cyou s2