'happy bday to hannah! i love you heaps and heaps and heaps, my ggmother; mwa mwa mwa mwa mwa! xo!' for tomorrow because i know i will be too tired to update after the athletics carnival. it's not as easy as it seems to just sit around for several hours, be a lazy fat ass and eat all day while seeing other more athletic girls running with all their might just to get (a) cheap blue, red or green ribbon(s). pfft the best i ever did was a red ribbon in a race of five girls in primary school. current aim for today is to stay awake until 12am in order to send the cute, little birthday girl a special message and may i add: it's on the DOT, or possibly 1 to 2 minutes delayed. i was thinking; should i hunt her down since i know where she lives and it's fairly close to MY humble abode? which means i may have to sacrifice my precious sleeping time which i love oh so much? and to risk waking her up early as well? or to risk being late and never ending up seeing her? i think not. a 22c text message is the most/best i can do.

i just hate seeing you so upset all the time. i have no idea what you're going through right now and i know the only thing i can do is just sit and wait here incase you need to talk which will never happen since you never did and never will open up to me but i don't mind. i just hope that soon; you won't be as miserable as you are/sound now.