I guess when you like something, you only think about the good things about it despite the fact that there may be more and more detrimental things to it. Who cares if there's a bad side to it, as long as the good side of it is much better. Sometimes if you want something, you don't mind waiting for it, no matter how long or dreadful the time may seem. Other times you do something terribly stupid and you really, really regret it but there's nothing you can do to turn it around. There's nothing that will stop it from spreading. It's like cancer. Malignant. The feeling of anxiety sucks. When someone's in trouble and all you can do is watch and wait to see what happens next. I hate when people get easily attached to others. All they do is one nice thing; for instance a nice statement to you, hugs you or smiles at you or whatever and the next thing you know, it's like again. Sigh. Stupid, stupid girl. Don't you just hate when nothing goes to plan. You schedule something or you plan to do something but you never end up doing it. I absolutely hate the feeling of being lazy. A big, fat, lazy bitch. You say you'll do this and you'll do that but since when have you ever stuck to your plans? It's pathetic and when things don't turn out right due to that lazyness, you just then, learn to realise that there's no-one else to blame but yourself. The only person that can help you is yourself. The people around you just give you guidance but the only person that can actually get you through tough times is once again, yourself. Why are people so stupid? When someone is with you all the time, you tend to forget to treasure that person but when that person is gone and you need a shoulder to lean on, that person's not there anymore and you hate yourself for taking that person for granted. Isn't it annoying when things just don't go to plan and at the last minute things start to mess up. That's what I'm feeling like now. All messed up.