Why do I ask my peers questions when I am certain of the answers that I'm going to hear? Maybe it's just to hopefully prove myself wrong and that it's not true, that it'll go my way or that I'll hear what I want to hear. But the truthful answer always hurts and it's always disappointing but then again aren't you grateful for the people who speak the truth to you or what they really think or know?

One day when all this is over and you have no-one there to comfort you, do you think I'll be able to accept you back into my life after all you've done despite already knowing how it would make me feel? Do you think I would want you near me after it all ends? You're just like a piece of rubbish coming back to it's owner asking for forgiveness or flying back, pretending like nothing ever happened, like you were never 'thrown away' in the first place. What do you think will happen to you when those two people aren't there as well? Who will you have? No-one i presume. No-one. People make not so good decisions in their lives and dear, you've just made one yourself. You base your life around too little people. What happens if they disappear from you or just vanish away from you like you did to me? Where will you go? What will you end up as? Who will you go to for comfort?

Just think child- who were the ones that were really there for you when you were having troubles or problems in your life? It was the closest ones around you but you just seem to leave or abandon them, let alone being grateful for them. You seem to take everything for granted and only deal with things in the present without thinking about how it may affect your not so far future.

After school, Connie and I went to Homebush so she could apply for a job there and then we went to buy eyeliner & sharpener. Hehe. One more thing crossed off my 'needs' list which is quite lengthy. Going to attend church this week to meet my 'long lost' buddies Jane and Angela :) I know it's an awful reason to attend church but isn't it better than not attending at all? Or is that just a misunderstanding?

Teachers and even students tend to say, select your peers who would be the best representatives for SRC but since when does anyone really do that? Everyone would select their closest ones no matter how irresponsible that person might be. But that's only because you want the best for your lovelies. There's nothing wrong with that. No need to repeat the same lines over and over again when selecting leaders since everyone's listening but no-one's taking it into action.

Everytime you seem to want something at a certain time, the timing is just awful and the people around you just don't seem to notice what you really want. Maybe it's because you don't make it very apprehensible. Sometimes things aren't just meant to be and no matter what you do, it's impossible. Now and forever. You just have to learn to live with it and/or cope with it.

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