I'm not sure of what I did to myself recently. My left ankle is extremely sore, aching and has been bugging me for the whole day today which has also influenced the way I behaved and is also the reason behind all my slow reaction speeds. Had my high moments, singing to myself and trying to convince someone to take a photo with me but she refused several times :( Hannah piggybacked me as were waiting for the teacher to start the biology lesson. Haha. Everything odd happens in those biology lessons- love 'em! She said I wasn't heavy although she was struggling, I was slipping down and she was desperately struggling to find the labratory bench on which she could place me. Haha. Funny child. Full of nice lies.

Once again, no-one did anything particularly productive during the study lesson in period six. Connie read a children's book, Carman looked along, Monica 'attenpted' to research for her S.O.R assessment task which I HAVE TO commence very soon and I once again, teased Ashley about the boy she thought was hot. Haha. I really think he is NOT. But that is just me :P I guess I focus too much on physical appearances when I'm not so pleasant-looking myself which is not a very good thing to do as people may view me like that too but what the heck! :P

Have made a final decision. I have decided NOT to go to the Year 11 Social. Yes, this is the time for people who hate me to cheer or spread the word that the ugly fat girl isn't attending. But the only reason behind that is that my lovelies are not going due to financial problems or family matters. No, that bitch did not affect my decisions in any way so I can once again say proudly that I will not allow a single person ruin my fun times. And even if I DO go, it won't be as enjoyably without most of my closest buddies so no can do.

MSNing with Monique just made me realise how unimaginative and uncreative I am.

WHY DO YOU KEEP DOING THAT!? WHY DO YOU CONSTANTLY DO THAT!?- AND REMIND ME OF PAST HAPPENINGS WHEN YOU KNOW I HATE IT SO MUCH!? WHEN I ABSOLUTELY HATE WHEN YOU MENTION THOSE THINGS!? HAVE YOU EVER TAKEN A SHORT MOMENT TO THINK TO YOURSELF THAT THAT PERSON WAS THE ONE THAT STARTED THE ANGER AND HATE BETWEEN YOU AND HER CLOSEST FRIENDS!? DOES THAT BASTARD EVEN KNOW THAT IT WAS HER TO BEGIN WITH AND THAT WE WERE ONLY STICKING UP FOR HER!? DOES THAT PERSON KNOW THAT SHE SAID THE HARSHEST THINGS AND YET THAT PERSON CAN FORGIVE HER SO EASILY JUST FOR ONE REASON THAT THAT PERSON IS SO, EXTREMELY CLOSE TO YOU!? WHY DON'T PEOPLE TAKE A FEW MINUTES TO THINK ABOUT WHAT THEY'RE REALLY DOING AND THE THINGS THEY SAY OR DO!? WHY DO PEOPLE TEND TO FORGIVE THE CLOSEST ONES OF THEIR CLOSEST ONES DESPITE THE FACT THAT THEY WERE THE 'CRUELEST' IN THE BEGINNING AND JUST BECAUSE WE'RE NOT AS CLOSE TO YOUR CLOSEST ONE, YOU DON'T EVEN TEND TO CARE?

Do you even know what she's going through right now? Do you know that *** *** ** ***** ******* except for that one single person?? You think you know everything about her yet you know so little. Just because you have gotten to 'know her' does not make you the closest one to her. Yes, she would most likely choose you over anyone else FOR NOW, but how long do you think that will last? You break it this time, you've run out of opportunities to make whatever better again. You should think of yourself as lucky now that you understand what it's like to NOT have the things which are most 'precious' to you with you.

이것 때문에 친구들도 많이 잊고 그놈 때문에 많이 울기도 했는데 걔한테 왜 다시 돌아가? 그러면 네 친구들이 불편해지는거 알면서 계속 네가 좋아하는데로, 네가 편한데로 행동하니깐 얘들도 싫어하잖아. 바보처럼 그것도 모르고 항상 네가 원하는데로 하고.. 나중에 그 남자까지 널 떠나면 어떡할려고? 그땐 어쩔려고? ..

I don't wanna hold you back from where you might belong. You would never ask me why my heart is so disguised. I just can't live a lie anymore. I would rather hurt myself than to ever make you cry. There's nothing left to say but goodbye. There's nothing left to try. No it's gonna hurt us both.