Why do I feel so anxious that I'm not treating you with the full respect you deserve? Why do I constantly think that I'm treating you like an additional or supplementary person when you're not? I'm occasionally concerned that you may be displeased about how I act towards certain things or people now. It feels as if, if one problem disappears or is solved, there's another one awaiting me. You came into my comfort zone and became one of the closest people I knew. Telling you confessions or expressing certain thoughts and feelings towards a certain issue. Please don't ever think I would love you a little less because another person has become closer to me. It worries me that you may see me differently but I hope nothing stupid gets in the way of us.

You seem sick. I haven't seen you in quite a while, but from what I've been hearing, you seem ill. I know there's nothing I can do but await or hope for you to get better soon. So I shall. I hope you do get better really, really quickly. You may not be aware of how many people you can get worried over you. Think of the people who are wishing for you to get better and heal quickly bitch x)

It's such a pity that if you do not have many people to open up to, to express your thoughts to, you have to use an online blog as an alternative solution. And by doing this, you still aren't completely opening up yourself. You may hide certain thoughts in order to satisfy what other people are reading. or you may as well slightly change certain things or your perspective in order to sound sweeter than you really are. Shame it's so easy to hide your true colours or be someone that you really are not.

What are you supposed to do at a time when someone really close to you is so upset and on the verge of shedding tears or breaking down? What happens if you don't know what to do at a certain situation or if you have nothing to say in order to comfort them? It always seems to confuse me. It worries me. What if I make stupid suggestions and take the matter to another level and make things even worse? What happens if you hurt the person even more? Or leave more pain or dicomfort on their doorstep? Since I've been through similar times- when all I was asking for a little comfort and someone turned everything around and made it a whole lot worse, I know what it may feel like. I know what it feels like to get shitass comments from someone you didn't expect or when people get the wrong message or they place loads of shame or disgrace on you. As if it's not horrible already.