After all I did for you, and myself, and us, once again, you have to go and spoil everything. Make all my hard work and decisions go to waste, yet AGAIN!! As things were looking brighter than they were before, you have to say a statement which you know would hurt me so much. Do you even know how cut I was when I heard those words come out of your mouth? That me, your ONCE close friend, could be replaced and abandoned!? Felt like slapping that hole of yours. Do you know what it even feels like to be replaced by another person who youve known for barely a year or so? Would you like it if I literally threw you away for a boy too? Think about it! And stop being so damn SELFISH!

You know I tried my best to make things better. I tried talking things through, gradually trying to become friendlier towards you but everything I do just doesn't seem to mean anything at all to you. Telling the truth is good but sometimes, in certain situations, lies are preferred. You stupid person! No matter how untruthful it may sound, sometimes lying is for the better! Ever thought of that before!? You're just so selfish it irritates me! You're extremely inconsiderate and very, very annoying! You only care about your own reputation and how YOU would feel. No-one else but YOU! and that additional, SUPPLEMENTARY person you think you "LOVE" so much.

Sometimes when you insult people, do you ever think to yourself that you have some things or qualities in common with that certain person? When you 'hate' someone for a certain reason, make sure you don't do the same things you're hating that person for. You hated her for doing such things and you do the exact same things. Do you think it's alright for you to do it? And for everyone else, it's intolerable? Unacceptable?! Well, think again, think thoroughly about the way you act, and the extremely horrible things you say. And PLEASE, for ONCE, think about other people?! Maybe you will grow closer to others and make more friends?

Now I seem to hate.. even seeing you! Even a slight glance at your face makes me cringe and brings horrible images to my head. I hate hearing your voice and seeing the way you act. I hate how you act as if you're "using" people. I hate the fact that I told you the things I hated about you. I confessed practically everything that I was hiding from you. I typed it all up and sent it to you. You think it was so simple and easy for me to say those things? You think it doesn't affect me? I had trouble writing it. It wasn't the first time I shed so many tears because of you. I couldn't believe that you could let those things get in the way of a friendship that's lasted for years.

You just have no idea what the word 'cherish' means. You take every single thing or person for granted. You think you're so perfect! That you have no imperfections or horrible qualities, well trust me, you do. You really don't seem to know what's special to you until it's gone. And one day you'll regret everything you've done, everything you've lost and everything you've gained- a strong dislike from me. I currently dislike you. I dislike you so much that it's so close to hate. I dislike you with a passion. God knows if I hate you more than the fat girl at school. Now that's a lot of hate.

No, it's not going to be me trying to sort things out from now on. I give up! Because everytime I try to do so, you ignore it and treat me like SHIT. After all the times I've stood up for you, been on your side and comforted you when you were upset or hurt, you still treat me like you do. I've stood up for you countless times, no matter if I thought or knew you were wrong. There are two times that come to mind. For instance when you were being told off be several people, you were speechless and had no back-ups. Who was the only person who was there for you? It was me. But I guess none of that matters to you either. That's it! I'm sick and tired of you and the person you are. I give up! Do your shit. Do whatever you want or like. See if I care! You know who you are and so does everyone else.

x/3 FUCKEN HELL