The amount of times I've heard or seen advertisements for Fathers' Day is countless but the day has finally arrived; tomorrow. I've been such a horrible daughter and regret everything I've done to him or acted towards him. God knows what he thinks of me now :( But I still love him :) Appa! Happy Father's Day! x3

Why is it that sometimes you want something really horrible to happen to some people? Like really really REALLY horrible? I guess you have no guts to do it yourself or make it happen? Well, who would want to when you take a look at the consequences. I'd rather suffer silently or think about it, hoping it to happen :) But honestly, sometimes you need certain events to happen in order to learn from them, to realise your wrongdoings or to learn from what you did previously. In order to gain knowledge or realise that you reacted incorrectly/made wrong decisions. If only that day came quickly. If only I could decide what or when things happened or when they were going to happen. If only I could 'play God' for one day. It would be an opportunity to turn awful things aroung and make them better.

I was actually looking forward to the social and the cruise. But two things made me change my mind. Try and guess. It's quite easy actually.

Do you know what it feels like to be abandoned or used? Have you ever been through such things? You know you should forget about it and move on but you can't seem to just let it go. It sticks to your brain. It just doesn't let you stop thinking about it. And as time passes, and you think about it more and more, it really gets to you. You swear, you cry, you wish that person was gone and you wish you never had anything to do with that person. But it's too late and you should just let it be a yet another stupid thing of the past but it's just so awful you want revenge, evil revenge. You want that person to suffer the way you did in order for them to realise how heartbreaking and miserable it really is. You want them to know what reality really tastes like.

Oh well. I still continue to await the day when that person will feel unloved or inferior. Call me evil but seriously, it doesn't even add up to the hurt I've been through. Horrible person. Horrible, horrible person! You've always been treated like you were perfect and beautiful, lovable and gorgeous but to me, you're the full opposite. To me, you're absolutely disgusting and horrific, full of imperfections and full of dislike.

You know there is a very long list of people that hate you. Why not change and make them like you? Or maybe it's just because you're the type of person that is so selfish and rude that no one wants anything to do with you. The end.

Make a change. Not for you, but for everyone else who has to see or deal with you. Just a piece of advice. Maybe I should do so too. Boy, we suck! But somehow I still prefer me over you.