I'm strong enough to get through this all. I'm wise enough to make clever decisions, for both myself and others and to accept the responsibilities I have been given. Sometimes you receive something you had wished for for quite a while, but when the day comes and you receive that certain thing or that certain wish comes true, it just feels weird. It feels strange and different to how you thought you would have felt. It's so confusing. Will it continue or change possibly due to the different circumstances at certain times? Will you criticise me as I sit and cry? If only there was one more chance to start all over again. Will my weakness for an hour make me suffer for a lifetime? There's just too many scratches, bruises and tears. It's not as easy as it seems to be able to forgive one knowing how much they hurt you previously.

I assume sometimes you just have no choice but to make decisions; without knowing whether they're bad or not and without being aware of the future consequences of your choices. But you cant just hesitate and hope that sooner or later, that someone else will be able to make such decisions for you. Sometimes there are just several barriers you have to fight- barriers that no-one else can fight but yourself. That's the one time you have to be strong and stand up for yourself. You have to face your own problems by yourself. You have to stand up on your hind legs and fight alone, hoping for the better.

I await another opportunity to be with you. Another opportunity to spend time with you and to have a proper conversation with you; to talk and smile together. To feel extremely happy. To feel the happiness I have not been able to feel recently. For you, it'll most likely be another moment that just passes you by but for me it's a moment I want to cherish for quite a while, if not for ever. Exaggeration? Yes. But I got my point across, didn't I? :)

I miss my girls. I haven't seen them for only a few hours and/or days but I miss them like crazy. Well, the holidays have finally approached so I can MSN or talk to them whenever I please. Social is in exactly five days and I still have no dress as I have had no opportunities to go shopping. I have no heels. My hair is ruined. My face has always been ruined. Haha. So many things to purchase. Predicting zero dollars pocket money by the end of these holidays and to make things worse, no job to earn all that money back. Bye bye dosh.