Today was quite boring if not horrible as well. The bus was always late both at the beginning and the end of the day. We arrived at our destination and my head was full of past memories. Time really did go slowly and the day was so dreaded. It was more of a bluding or bonding time as opposed to actually learning the typical characterisitics of being a such leader but I guess that just made the whole experience a tad preferable. Nothing in particular happened. At the end of the day, we were waiting for our bus and everyone started piggybacking everyone which reminded me of social. Haha. Got spanked, biten and piggybacked by oh so many people. It was quite funny how easily amused some people in our grade can be. But it was a quite funny moment of the day and everyone had a laugh or two so it was decent.

Would you leave me for her? Would you pretend like you didn't know me to keep her happy or satisfied? Would you hurt me to keep her happy? Would you make me cry to make her smile? Would you do anything for her even though it would upset me? If she wanted you back would you run back to her? Would you just leave me here, waiting for you to return? Would you let me down to meet her expectations after all that's happened? I think you'd leave me for her. And yes, I think you would pretend like I was some stranger on the street to keep her content. Yes, I think you'd hurt me to keep her happy and that you wouldn't mind if I cried as long as she smiled and remained pleased. I think you'd run back to her if she wanted you back and she needed someone by her side. I think you'd leave me to accompany her while I waited alone for you to return. I think you'd fall for her trap again. I think you're emotionally unstable. I think I'm paranoid.

I know I should be happy for you and congratulating you but it just doesn't seem right. Why am I so unpleased when I should be glad and excited for you? Perhaps I'm just worried about the most silly things. It's almost impossible to realise the most precious things you have until you partially or completely lose them. The final destination cannot overpower the significance of the actual journey.