Sometimes some things are just impossible to cope with. Things that once brought happiness and joy into one's life can amazingly turn into something that only brings with it sorrow and gloom. It's quite upsetting how no matter how obvious or apprehensible you make things, they just don't understand. Or they do. It's just that they're too ashamed to go along with your hopes. They just crush the little dreams you once had. It's so obvious they don't care and that you mean absolutely nothing to them. It's quite clear that they don't give a damn about you. It's quite clear that they have other more important things to waste time on and that they're gradually fading away like every other thing you've ever had before. Now they're vanishing. They're leaving you like everyone else, once again. They've let you down and have trodden all over you yet you still have the slightest amount of hope to keep hold of this wish. To wish that one day things will finally work out for you.

She thinks about you every day. She misses you all the time. She let herself grow on you yet you seem to push her away. She tries her best at all times to make things work and tries to make things seem perfect. She tries to be happy with you and for you. She believes you and trusts you more than anyone else. She cherishes you with all her heart and still awaits the opportunity she was once given, but had lost. She wants her past to come back. She wants all her past memories to become a part of reality. She longs for another chance to prove to you what she's really like. She wants another chance to open up. To be expressive. She wants to show you the brighter side of her and the things she can offer you. She hates herself for being so imperfect and longs to be half-decent. She wants to match those high expectations of yours. She cries at night thinking about the ways you've changed. She dislikes the way you just abandon her and tell lies. She hates when you're upset and she can't lend you a shoulder to cry on. She hates seeing you suffer and wanting something she can't offer.

He doesn't care and never will, and probably never did. He's foolish and self-centred. He tell lies and pretends like nothing ever happened. He treats her like he treats anyone else. He doesn't look beyond the literal things he says and how one may misinterpret them or over analyse them. He doesn't know when or how to cherish things and he puts her aside. He sees nothing in her and says and does little things to her. He makes her cry and emotionally kills her inside. He overtakes every other thought that occupies her mind.


Whatever.