I hope that what you're talking about is what I think you're talking about. Because then it could actually mean that there is a possibility that that might happen. But then again on the other side, there's so many other better choices out there I don't know why I even bother to care anymore. I don't know why I contemplate over things so much. You don't really like it when people can read your mind too easily and when they question you about something so simple, yet you find it so difficult to answer. Just open up and say what you're feeling. Who cares if they're not interested or couldnt care less. Just say it so you know whether to stay and keep your hopes up and or just leave and move on like you've done before.

Maybe I'm just over analysing things once again but the impression I'm getting is that I'm on the verge of yet another problem. Things don't seem to work out and when you think they're just about to get back on the right track, everything you ever wanted just goes in weird directions. Sometimes you get some things you never even thought about trying to get, yet you never seem to be able to get what you really want and tried so hard to gain. Everything's everywhere constantly confusing me and out there to bug me. It relates a little to making the decision based on choosing the road everyone's choosing or has been through, or choosing one you wouldn't necessarily choose before despite the feeling of not knowing what lies ahead of you.