It's true. They're stupid and selfish. Damn s's. They do things without thinking about how other people would feel if they were in our positions. All they do is hurt people around me and truly, I do feel like slapping them until I get my point across. Why do something without thinking about how others might feel? I'm sure you wouldn't feel too pleased if we went around and talked about certain things to you. But then why do it to us? It's not like we don't have feelings or emotions. We're just human too. We don't like the things you would hate either. It's just that we're more open as to think how you would feel about it if we were to do the same. And that's why we don't mention a thing about it. It's not because we have no connections with them. It's because we worry it'll bug you as much as it bugs us when you talk about other things we clearly couldn't care less about.

Why is it that when you finally get a tiny bit of courage so you finally tell them something, they think you're just joking around with them. Why would we lie about things like that. It's not like we have nothing better to do. You find the things that upset me, amusing. I've told myself that even if it was to happen it wouldn't last. There's better options and so I've decided to choose them instead. I don't see the need to put an extra dot point on my list of worries when it really isn't necessary. I've realised the better path to choose. But I'm afraid because I know if I ever do get the opportuntity I'll take it after confronting myself not to.

Why would you go and do things when you clearly know I'll see it later. Why say things when you know I'll be left confused. You seem to be lost in how to act towards certain things. At one moment you seem to have big issues about certain things but then at another, you pretend like you're fine with everything and that things couldn't be better. Perhaps I'm making things a bit too apprehensible but I guess it's the only way to get my point across without really having to say the exact words which express literal meanings.

Maybe this is the first and possibly the last opportunity to get things straight and forget about everything. It's probably a sign to indicate to me that you'll always seem to leave me behind.