i should really stop 'changing my mind' so easily
it's something i keep to myself
but even i seem to despise myself for that reason
as well as many other factors that contribute
to make a whole bundle of negative 'characteristics'.

i think i also need to stop worrying about little things
for extended periods of time
and when i say extended, i mean extendeddddddd.

okay, now we can laugh
we can say things whenever we want to without wondering what people will think
we don't have to feel strange or have any feelings of shame or pity.
i like it this way

there's one thing i've learnt quite recently
you should never give up until you know it's definitely over
and when i mean definite,
i mean that you're so sure you would be able to risk your life
and the life of everyone else you love upon it
you should keep trying and striving to reach a certain point of happiness,
satisfaction or contentment

it feels good
quite great really.
or should i say 'ecstatic' in a way
now i have nothing to worry about
okay, maybe a few things
but it's a shorter list of things now

anyway moving on
the swimming carnival got postponed and it frustrated everyone
especially those who had to go back home to change into uniform
and for those, like me, who bludged the night before
well, news came that it's back on this friday
and if it rains,
and gets postponed once more,
i'm not attending it
and that's final.

oh, and about liezl and carman's 'birthday party'
there's now an approximated date
possibly the seventeenth of december
yeah, i'm more excited than the 'birthday girls'
maybe it's the price of 'nearly' $1000 which make me look forward to it
or maybe it's the bonding time,
the communicating time
meeting up with the girls & .. boys?
or okay, it might be the DJ
or the $100 worth of drinks
or the possible hotel for those who can't go home afterwards
or fine, maybe it's cause i wanna know what people look like in real life
or maybe it's the theme i wanna dress up for
maybe its because then, HSC will be over
and it'll be party time until we get our results
which pretty much determines our whole life path :/
well either way,
i'm, sure it'll be lovely.
and i'm there. definately :]

oh yes, we're drifting apart
and i miss you.
but you don't care.
so neither will i.
it's just not as easy as it sounds.
from 7/7 to 2/7 to 1/7, almost 0/7.
everything in relation to that is practically all muddled up
and quite horrible
and veryyyyyy disappointing
but what can you do?
nothing.

"HELLO GOODBYE"