do school photos get any worse?
this year's photos were the worst.
no, we didn't see them yet but the photographers & school were so strict
year twelves didn't even get the 'priveliges' they were once given
how come everything ends when i'm just beginning?

okay holding in tears most nights doesn't last very long for me
and out of all the places i had to explode,
my heart told my stupid brain to let it all out at school
yes, it was stupid
and i was in a bigger mess than i am when i'm 'normal'

yeah, i'd tell people why i was in the state i was
& yeah, i'd explain and express what i thought
but really, i had no idea what i thought.
it's really confusing
i guess it really is every little thing coalescing together
that really does go to prove that others understand me better than i do
they seem to be able to interpret me at times when even i don't understand myself

it's disappointing that you seem to provide explanations
and yet your actions never support what you say
it just doesn't make sense to me
and everything seems unclear and patchy
maybe it's just something everyone deals with once in a while
but i'm probably just not used to it
and so i'm left in a constant phase where i'm completely blank

it's true and no-one can deny it
whenever one thing seems to get better,
the other progressively gets worse
whether it be quickly or slowly
why can't you be satisfied with two things
rather than one or the other?
yes, it's frustrating but i see no reason why it has to be like that

i guess that when you have a goal,
you're more determined
but how come that doesn't really seem to work for me?

it's quite amusing that i'm so weak when it come to words
you say a few words that you probably don't even mean
and i'm left quite happy & start smiling
yeah, it's quite silly if you ask me
but at least i can smile 'easily' for once

"HE WAS RIGHT. I AM AND ALWAYS WILL BE A SUBSTITUTE"