Don't you sometimes, quite often even, just wish that you could see every move you make to really capture the stupid essence of it? People that try to sound like someone else, just to feel that little additional satisfaction is gradually beginning to bother me and fine, we all have our moments but it's just so irritating. And making moves that aren't like yourself? It's like disguising yourself without even knowing what you're making yourself go through. Soon enough, I'm sure you'll regret it. It just takes time. And so we'll have to wait. You try to head towards accomplishment but before you know it you're knocking on the door of failure.

I despise when people don't even think about considering what one says. If someone tries to make things better for you, you could at least pretend like you cared. Overused words and actions really have lost complete meaning and no, I haven't fallen for it since I've realised. No more 'making me a fool' anymore. You've had your fun, watched me fall for things but now you can see what really happens to people when you do that. I really want you to see me suffer; to see me unhappy just so you know what you've gotten me into, as well as yourself. Why did you try and make everything feel so right and perfect when you're going to turn around and refer to it as something that shouldn't have happened later on? Confusing people is one thing and hurting them is another. I began to see the reasons why the past happenings have occurred and I will try to steer away from such temptations but as always, I have a feeling I'll just go through hell over and over again.

Look at me. Watch me stop caring about every little thing. You point out every little thing that you refer to as discontent. I'm not here to be the picture perfect person you've dreamed of. I refuse to do everything for the well-being of yours and forget about mine. I'm going to put myself before you now cause you make me feel worse than I thought previously and I don't need those thoughts constantly roaming around in my mind. People around me try to make me feel secure and feel positive about everything but you just push them out of the way. It's funny what I once tried to do for you. Did things I had given up on. Tried to do things that weren't me. Now I'm going to do the complete opposite just so that you don't get the feeling of achievement. Screw that. No-one's worth anything when they're rude, self-centered and selfish. Forget it. I'll forget you ever existed.