Autobiography.
Hello, my name's Susan and I was born on the fifteenth of May and am currently eighteen years of age :) I graduated from Bethlehem College Ashfield in 2007 and am currently studying a Bachelor degree of Animal and Veterinary Bioscience at the University of Sydney. I'm Korean and often get mistaken to be Chinese like every other Asian person does. I've been working at Vinnies located in Dulwich Hill for almost a year now (Y) I've been adoring my beautiful boyfriend since May 15, 2008. Loooooooove him! 'cause he makes me happy :)
Friday, October 26, 2007.
MIRACLES HAPPEN - 8:14 pm.
Today was different than yesterday and will probably be different to tomorrow; in a good or bad way, I'm not so sure yet. I smiled and laughed today. The majority of the happiness you took away from me; I felt like I gained half of it back. However, thanks to you, I can't help but still feel insecure and volatile, and wonder if this new feeling or experience will end as fast as it did before. If you're intentions were to leave a mark within me you certainly did meet your expectations; you succeeded. It rained today and couldn't help but think of the past, despite how 'gay' that might sound; you made me like this. You make me regret slipping and I really have learned the hard way to keep my emotions under control. But this time, things feel different; hardly as selfish as you are; more understanding and caring, as well as responsible and open. If only my memories of you could be replaced with someone else.
You were everything, everything that I wanted
We were meant to be, supposed to be, but we lost it
And all of the memories, so close to me, just fade away
All this time you were pretending
So much for my happy ending
I'm sick of your 'fakeness' and your lies; pretending that there was something to look forward to. I should have known you just built a wall so you could break the whole thing down, purely for your own entertainment. Selfish bastard! You used to only say what you wanted to, and when I finally got the chance to say a word, you wouldn't take me seriously or you wouldn't listen or bother anyway.
You're such a hypocrite! and I really do wish I had the confidence to say this to your face, but despite all the discourteous things you've done or said, I still want you by my side so when I finally succeed, I can SHOVE IT in your face. LOL. Who cares if you're older; you should be ashamed since you have a smaller amount of wisdom than those younger than you. Age doesn't matter, especially if it's ONE year; maybe not even!
Maybe I do deserve a whole lot better.
Oh karma, please work.
& Happy EIGHTEENTH in advanced Connie! I doubt I'll post on the day.
ILY emo jackie; my other half. LOL : )
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