It's almost 2009 and I feel so disappointed in that I feel no accomplishment. What have I learn this year from attending uni lectures? Pretty much nothing except for the fact that I definitely prefer high school and I feel like I'm wasting time doing this stupid course. My mum asked me (out of curiosity) why I didn't resit the HSC and try to get into Veterinary Science but the only thing holding me back was the fact that I didn't want to be in the same grade as those in year 12 right now. It just feels too shameful and I would be too embarrassed to actually attend class on a daily basis.

Today, all I did was go to work, eat a bit of cake and pide, and I probably might go for a 'jog' later tonight with Sean for the first time in how long? It reminds me of how we used to go every night before we used to date and how I used to always slow him down with my sausage-dog-like short legs :) Oh, that reminds me; the last time we went walking through one of the parks in Campsie, we came across a couple having sex next to the foot path. Yummy, yeah? I felt so embarrassed and ashamed for them and couldn't help but laugh.

So much bludging and going out every night for the past few months has been really relaxing yet worrying. So, what have I done for the past few months or weeks? Let's see.. I've been going out with my baby (of course) and we've been out to dinner almost everyday (hence, I'm soon going to roll to uni and save on train fares), we went to the library (to study, of course?), we've been to the beach (when it was freeeeezing), I lost my wallet (for the fourth time) at the Burwood food court toilets (and started whaling in public), I've been to the buffet at StarCity (with my family), I accidentally lost Sean's wallet at Bronte (so sooooooo sorry!) so I bought him another A/X one, we went to friends' houses, we went to Canterbury league and other cafes (mainly George's Cafe) for coffee, we've watched movies, we've been randomly cruising around, Sean came over to my house, and so on. That might seem like so little but excuse my short-term memory and it's inability to remember events that have occurred more than one month ago.

Last Saturday, we went to Kenji's 21st birthday party which was on a cruise at Darling Harbour. The organized speeches and photo slides were very cute and touching, and made me want a birthday party like that. Never have I seen the same girl pash and dirty dance with so many guys and girls in one hour. Minus the fact that I barely knew anyone, the view was pretty and Connie kept me company on the phone which was sweet cause she was at karaoke with other friends and left them for me (That's right! She LEFT THEM for ME :D). The person controlling the cruise also kept me company until Sean came :) Afterwards, we tried to find a motel but we weren't willing to spend over $90 for a few hours so we just decided to go home and sleep.

Two more exams to go and then the HSC is finally over for Sean! :) I'm so happy for him. Even though he's planning to go to tafe, I hope he gets better than he expects and makes it to uni; preferably Sydney uni and then we can go together :P I hate seeing couples in uni haha :(

I swore never to speak to you again and it's going pretty well so far. I admit that at times, when you try to contact me, I want to talk back and ask how you're going and if everything's going fine but I know I can't. I have priorities and right now, you're not my top one. I'll hopefully talk to you some day in the future and we'll both (not just you) look back and laugh.